Okay, um, yeah, I'm kinda-sorta not okay. Like, I-need-the-Elite-Beat-Agents-not-okay (hence the title). Why?

I AM REALLY EFFING BEHIND IN CLASS AND I'M NOT EXACTLY ABLE TO FIX IT RIGHT AWAY!!


First off, I've got AD/HD, which has been hitting me really bad. (...Now that I think about it, maybe I need a higher dosage of meds...MAYBE. That's a last-resort sort of thing.) I'm behind in all three of my classes that have actual homework AND I'm so far behind in practice, I think that my flute teacher said that if I don't have 60 minutes of practice on my practice log every day until Monday, I'm not gonna HAVE lessons. (And just when I actually had a decent lesson that didn't leave me carrying five tons of guilt afterwards!) And guess what?

I DON'T KNOW WHERE ONE OF MY FLUTE BOOKS IS AND I NEED TO PRACTICE TODAY!*

Whenever I have free time, I never do any homework during it. Heck, even now, I could have been working on an assignment due in ten minutes and I'm here on dA writing a journal!! Furthermore,

I have frikkin' WORK STUDY to deal with on my long-time-no-classes days!! (Tuesdays and Thursdays; work study (dishes at the caf) is 5PM to 8:30PM-9PM (depends; recently actually got out right about when the caf closes, 8:30. It was AWESOME ON A STICK.).)
I have late work coming out the ASS!!
One of these assignments is a draft of a paper and it's already late and I signed up to work on REVISING it TODAY at TWO and it's TEN-FOURTY-EIGHT and I have no clue what to do because it wants me to describe a vivid, important memory and my memory SUCKS COMPLETE AND UTTER [insert synonym for "ass" here]!!

But...

This is a Goron problem!

...*forgets the other part of that quote* Sorry, had to. Yeah, I'm not exactly in the best sorts. I'm just...yikes. YIKES. Mom is helping by talking with me every night--AD/HD coaching; we both have it--but she's been forgetting about it every night, which has been not helping. And I have NO idea how I could get help from the counselors or other people-who-can-help here, either...I just don't know how they can help, because it's all stuff that concerns me and my efforts. I don't wanna quit work study because they're undermanned as-is. (I'll wait until I CAN'T work anymore because of the work study agreement thingy.) And most of my classwork depends on Moodle--my French class has all the assignments ON Moodle and I never check it because I'm not used to it!

I'm worried. Oh, God, help me. I wish the EBA were real. I REALLY wish the EBA were real.

HHHEEEEEEEEEEAAAALLLP!!


*EDIT: I found my other flute book. It was in the OTHER flute book. God, why am I a moron?